Summary

I live in Pāhoa on the Big Island of Hawaiʻi, where I moved three years ago as part of my healing journey. I came with the intention to simplify my life and create a homestead that could support and hold my work. I wanted to take time to pause and reorient—to simplify my career and focus on self-care, healing, and integration.

I am a creator and a lover of beauty, channeling my energy into designing and crafting projects, environments, and experiences—for myself and others—that reflect and embody my values. My work, and my life, are devoted to deepening the experience of awe and connection to the beauty of existence, that is birthed in the suffering that we all experience. I seek to empower myself and others to meet ourselves exactly where we are, and to gently guide ourselves—through presence, compassion, and creativity—toward a more glorious and integrative life and collective future.

What I’ve learned from my path is that my outer world must remain in integrity with my inner world—that who I am publicly must reflect who I am privately. I live with a moment-by-moment practice of opening my heart, releasing residual energies of the past, and responding as consciously as I can to the guidance of intuition. In this way, I continue refining a lifestyle and life expression that is intimately married to my subconscious development.

I live a meditative, presence-centered life that supports healing and integration—an ongoing process of becoming more fully alive and aware with each passing day. This journey has led me to shape a way of living that honors the specific needs of my body and spirit. I am seeking projects, relationships, and work that harmonize with this developmental path. From this place of deep alignment, I can operate with grounded presence and clarity to steward meaningful and powerful ventures that allow for personal and collective growth.

This sensing-and-surrender path has led me into an expressive lifestyle—one where creativity, expression, and embodiment are not separate from healing, but are the healing itself. Through learning and listening deeply to the subtle language of my intuition, I’ve allowed movement, music, touch, and craft to become core expressions of my inner world. I have become a dancer, a musician, a healer, a builder—and ultimately, just another part of our collective expression, bringing my unique gifts to myself and others with greater degrees of sincerity and presence.

I am now preparing to step into a new chapter of service rooted in healing, ministry, and community development. I’m also readying myself to hold another business venture in the coming years, when I feel my time of recentering is complete.

Early Development

Family

I was raised in San Francisco in a lively household of eleven. As the middle child of seven, I was homeschooled and developed an early love for classical literature and deep philosophical inquiry. I was a quiet, thoughtful, and sensitive child with a heart oriented toward service and the healing of suffering for others. I found an outlet for this drive through ministry work with my family from a young age.

Much of my childhood was spent on the large hill behind our home, where I built forts, carved trails, and planted gardens—drawn by a desire to create beauty and a sense of place that invited play and connection. I organized a neighborhood club where we played games, hosted sleepovers, and created moments of real magic. I also painted, pressed flowers, and wrote short stories—my earliest forms of expressive art.

I experienced early childhood trauma and grew up in an unstable home environment that had a profound impact on my psyche. Much of my early expression came from a desire to offer support and create shared moments of relief from the suffering we experienced in our family and community. However, I didn’t have the skills to process or release my own pain. Instead, I came to believe that the way to live was to build a life that compensated for my internal struggles. As a result, my life expressions were heartfelt and aspirational, but often carried an undercurrent of unexpressed emotional need and instability.

Education

I was a homeschooled child, with a very loose early education that allowed for a lot of creative time with myself. I entered college at 15 and immersed myself in the creative arts—studying music, design, and performance at City College of San Francisco. I later transitioned into policy and urban design at San Francisco State University, where I graduated at 26. I entered this field to find a practical application for my heart to serve. I also actively found mentorship relationships, partnering with many leaders in philanthropic organizations and business endeavors, and learned through the men that I co-created with. My education reflects a lifelong search for balance between personal development, creativity, and social systems.

Early Christianity

I was born into a spiritual lineage—both of my parents were ministers of a large Christian church in San Francisco. At 21, I stepped fully into that path myself, becoming a pastor, worship leader, and healer until the age of 28, when I chose to step away from the Christian faith. My early spiritual work was deeply rooted in Christian tradition, yet it gradually evolved to incorporate broader, more inclusive approaches to healing and service.

I’ve always thought deeply about the nature and needs of humanity—an exploration shaped by my own inner struggles and longings. I became a student of the Bible, and also of European literature, especially writers like Victor Hugo, whose works allowed me to feel into the collective struggles of the human spirit and our shared yearning for redemption and revolution.

Though I no longer walk within the confines of traditional Christianity, I remain deeply rooted in a path of service and Christ consciousness. While my parents may not see it this way, I know in my heart that I am still walking the path they laid out for me—just in a form that feels more true to who I’ve become. Where I once lived through the lens of righteousness, I now strive to honor each person’s unique journey, just as I have learned—through both grace and struggle—to honor my own.

Professional Development

Construction and Development

I’ve always loved learning and collecting skills—driven by a deep desire to bring my inner visions into form. Early on, I saw construction as a practical pathway: a way to learn how to shape spaces while earning an income that could support my work in ministry. I entered the trades at 15 and became a journeyman across all major disciplines by 25. I launched my own remodeling company in San Francisco and later moved into management roles within development firms in the Bay Area and Seattle. Once I had gained fluency in hands-on construction, my focus naturally shifted toward management, business, and operations. By 23, I transitioned out of manual labor and into project management, eventually overseeing large-scale development projects. Over time, my work evolved into land development—an integration of physical infrastructure with the businesses and communities that bring those spaces to life. I’ve always valued the craft of building—but even more so, I’ve been passionate about the industry, culture, care, and connection that emerge from the environments we inhabit.

Business and Entrepreneurism

At 25, I stepped into partner-level entrepreneurship, leading the design and execution of new ventures—from branding and sales to operations, finance, and product development. By 28, I was a business partner in many of the ventures I worked in, helping build finance-ready organizations across the Bay Area. Through these experiences, I developed a wide-ranging capacity for organizational design and execution, allowing me to bring complex ventures from concept to reality. I’ve co-founded four companies, ranging from wellness retreat centers to a mental health facility. Looking ahead, I’m excited to apply these skills to new creative ventures—especially those that integrate physical environments with mission-driven offerings that bring a social impact.

Spiritual Development

Mental Health

Growing up in an unstable household shaped me in profound and lasting ways. Early childhood trauma wove itself into the fabric of my inner world, and I sought healing through the framework of my Christian upbringing. In that search, I built intricate belief systems around my pain rooted in the problems of religion—mental and emotional structures meant to contain the hurt, but which ultimately deepened my inner dissonance.

I chased healing through romance, ministry, and work, convinced that success in these realms would finally bring relief. But the more I accomplished, the deeper the ache grew. This led to an eight-year season of depression, emotional numbness, suicidality, and profound hopelessness. During this time my energy grew more impablanced, I would start new relationships and businesses trying to birth a new reality for myself that would address the inner problems I faced, but then would slip back into apathy when my pain didn’t resolve. That chapter reached its darkest point following the end of my second marriage at age 33—an unraveling that brought me to the very edge of my constructed identity and opened the door to a deep awakening.

Spiritual Awakening

In the final chapter of that dark period, I began to see how I had been unconsciously creating and reenacting the painful stories I had lived within. I stopped blaming others for the situations I had helped shape and became willing—perhaps for the first time—to truly look within.

What I found was a whole inner world that had long been waiting for my attention. Parts of me that wanted to be seen, to feel safe, and to be integrated. I began to understand that the stories I had played out in my relationships and life were often attempts to get from others what I had not yet learned to give myself. This marked the beginning of learning to sit with those fragmented parts—feeling them fully, and slowly welcoming them back into wholeness.

With the guidance of teachers like Michael Singer, Ram Dass, and Osho, I began to dissolve the mental narratives that had kept me bound. Their teachings pointed me inward—toward presence, surrender, and self-acceptance. This was the beginning of a profound transformation: the healing of my relationship with pain, the loosening of my mind’s grip, and the awakening of a life rooted in spirit rather than story.

Since then, I’ve become more intentional about living a balanced life—one that responds to my subconscious needs and supports my continued healing. I’ve still made mistakes along the way, as the journey of bringing my inner world into greater maturity is ongoing. Yet I’ve experienced deep growth and a widening sense of wholeness. As I’ve evolved, my expressions have become more grounded and balanced, creating a more positive impact on the people around me. I’m deeply grateful to all the individuals and works that have had patience for me in my process, offering space and grace as I learn to more clearly and lovingly express my heart on this planet.

Creative Methodology

I’ve developed a new approach to life and creative work—one that arises from a deeper relationship with my subconscious desires and a willingness to let intuition lead. In this sensing-based way of living, I strive to harmonize with the natural stream of life, inhabiting each moment with as much presence as I can and allowing it to unfold organically into the next.

I hold my plans more loosely now, recognizing that rigid structures often arise from distorted lenses imprinted on me—and can restrict the greater possibilities life longs to reveal. This approach allows for a more agile and dynamic approach to challenges, that attempts to be as grounded in reality so complete responses can be applied to what I face. I want to truly create—not from force or compensation, but from a place where my felt experience meets higher, aspirational possibilities. I attune to my internal needs and desires, allowing them to shape the rhythm of my days and the direction of my work. Sometimes this calls me into deep simplicity and rest; other times, it prepares me to carry out significant creative missions with clarity and strength.

By allowing my energy—not my fears or conditioning—to lead, I’ve witnessed my creativity, intelligence, and power expand in ways I could never have accessed through my old ways of being. I now engage with my work more meaningfully, approaching each endeavor as a mirror of my internal development. As I continue to grow, I’m learning to steward relationships and projects with greater intentionality—ensuring they not only reach successful completion but also generate a deeper, more positive impact on the planet, the people who contribute to them, and those they are meant to serve.